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I am happiest by myself. I like persons; not people. Music keeps me alive. I try to be worthy of God's love. I'm still trying to find my way...

On Lost Joy, and Despondency

Shadows cast in sunny places
Forced to hide in open spaces
Malice etched in smiley faces
Long run out of second chances


Absinthe tastes the same as wine
Memories left behind in time
Footprints dissolved into tide
Life feels better in my mind


Drowning on the air I breathe
Orphan of murdered relief
Staring at shattered belief
Dying from my pleasure’s seed

Teardrops on Roses

Liquid crystals falling free
From her broken spirit’s draining se
Watering beauty of what used to be
Mourning the death of an eternity

Dawn’s anticipation, dusk’s passion
All merged in a teary picture of a fading past
Sunrise and midnight
All blurred in her swimming eyes
Into bittersweet remembrance

Now
The pieces have fallen into time and circumstance
The petals are falling
Slow dancing with her seeping soul
Falling
Her life before her eyes
Falling
Her heart to the ground
Falling
Hands of sweet caresses
Falling
Teardrops on the roses

Dearest Daddy,

Never really got the chance to show you your worth

Somehow I always knew you were God’s gift to earth

Never really got the chance to show you how much I cared

But I hope you heard these unspoken words

There were the times when I thought you just a bore

But I never stopped believing you were exceptional, and much more


However fleeting the time may have been

Thank you Daddy, for giving me my Daddy.

Shards of My Shattered Heart

In the spirit of love and sharing, here’s my story of heartbreak. I wrote it when my ex broke up with me…I think I loved her; she thought otherwise.



I can see in your eyes there’s a passion that still burns bright

I can see in your smile there’s affection that still resides

I can hear in your laugh an echo of your heart’s rhythm

I can feel in your touch there’s a love you’re still feeling


I know I said we’d make it work

Work it out, take away the hurt

Guess all I spoke was wasted words

Now reality’s my yesterday’s fears

You made your move and broke it off

Called me up, told me you’d had enough

Guess I thought I could do without

Guess I was right, I have no doubt


Yet I still want you, I won’t lie

My heart’s ripped up, yet I won’t cry

And there it lies, there in your eyes

The broken shadow of our fallen love


I can feel your heartbeat in your spoken words

I can hear the melody, the music of your soul

It’s to the tune of the words my heart calls


I’m sorry I let you fall

Didn’t come running when I heard you call

Looked away when you gave your all

Should have listened to your silent plea

It’s a pity but I couldn’t see

See I love you but I’ve got dignity

Can’t crawl back cuz the jokes on me

Can’t you see the blames not only on me?


I can see beyond, beneath the surface

I can hear the things you do not want to say

I can see the feelings you try to hide

Hide so hard with all your might


Asked if there was something I had to say

Said I was void so you went away

Now my soul’s bruised, I’m alone today

And though I won’t speak, there’s a lot to say

Lots of times I know I hurt you bad

Other times you got me badly scarred

Still I thought we’d sort of last

Because with you I always had a blast


Remember when we cared

Remember things you said

Can still hear them in my ear

Even though you’re no more here

Hear your voice in the air

Feel your touch when you’re not there

When I sleep, I stop and stare


Through it all somehow I bear


Maybe I’ve got stuff misconstrued

Maybe the things I see aren’t true

Maybe I don’t mean much to you

I know the way I feel isn’t new

It’s the same way I felt when I fell for you


I’m not trying to confuse you

Or make you do stuff you don’t want to

I just felt you had to know

Why it’s hard to just go with the flow.

Vindictive

Doesn’t it make you sad to think

That everywhere you touch her

I’ve touched her there before

And every time you taste he lips

I’ve tasted them before

And even though she likes you now

She used to like me more?